Elusive Ink

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Sean Kingston



At the moment I'm a mass of scattered thoughts and worries and frustrations and plans. There are so many directions I could take my life, it's hard to decide which path to take, and which options to pursue. Where do I even begin? I was so set on just, going to art school and getting a degree in photography. (Maybe a minor in Culinary Arts, too.) But I think that maybe I was a little unprepared for the cost associated with college. I'm at a point where, I absolutely refuse to begin my life in debt. Student loans are not an option for me, because I've seen the havoc they can wreak for years to come. I've begun looking into some scholarships, however, if I can't get enough then it may be that I have to take a few semesters off and work full time to try and save for college. In the meantime, I am trying to take every opportunity to expand my skills and clientele with my photography business. But I also feel like there are so many other directions I could take, and I'm feeling torn. I could try and paint but I feel like that would be a really hard career to pursue, and am I willing to commit to that? I could go into graphic design, but it's such a competitive field right now because there's been such an upsurgence of graphic designers freelancing right now. It's not as lucrative as it would've been a few years ago. (Of course, if I was pursuing something solely for the money I suppose I wouldn't be going into Fine Arts. :P) Of course, it's also not too late for me to go an entirely different direction and try to do some freelance writing, or logo design. I'd also like to try and finish some of the many short-stories I've written and sell them on the side.

A friend of mine suggested enlisting in the Navy to pay for college, and while I was abhorrent a first, I actually did start honestly considering it, just because...I would have my degree, without having to pay a cent, what a great financial place that would put me in! Plus, I would be in great shape after even a short enlistment in the Navy. Which would be nice motivation since I've been trying to get in shape anyway. But after a lot of consideration, I've pretty much put that idea off the table completely...it may still come back up as a last resort though. I'd like to try and seek out some other options first.

Of course, before any of this can happen I have to finish up a few stray courses.

As far as "getting in shape" inspiration goes, I have actually found a lot of motivation to keep active and healthy lately. My initial motivator was actually an episode of The Biggest Loser. I've found it very inspirational lately, mostly because - if these people can totally leave their lives, jobs, families, and aspirations to make it a priority to get healthy, that pretty much nixes any excuse that I have to not make living a healthy lifestyle a priority in my life right now. I've been given the great blessing of having the ability and opportunity to dedicate my time right now to work out, and retrain my habits (eating and being active.) and by seizing that opportunity, I definitely feel like I'm investing in my future. Not only by extending my own life, but by infusing great habits and policies into my life so that by the time I do have a family, and kids, I will never have to sacrifice my time with them to take weeks out of my life and concentrate on getting healthy. I can give my future kids the benefit of a healthy lifestyle from birth.

So, I'm excited to start this lifestyle change, and I'm going to try to keep my blog updated as I make progress.

I've also decided to attempt some video blogging (I have my first attempt in editing stages at the moment.) after some fantastic inspiration from sistersalad, after being sent this amazingly spazzy video. That reminded me of some equally spazzy videos that me and my pseudo-sis Fluff made many times over the past 10 years. (Yes, ten years...can you believe it?) I'll post a link once I finish my first one.

On another 'up' note, I have a photoshoot scheduled for next friday, but I have to get replacement bulbs for two of my studio lights before then. Also, tomorrow should be good - I'm going on an adventure into Washington D.C., from the bus to the metro, and the metro to D.C. I intend to enjoy some good sushi, good art, and then meet up with an old friend of mine who is going to be in the city for just that one day.

So, all of that combined, I'm not terrible at the moment - except for the fact that I have to go do chemistry. More later.

-Lindsey